jealousy (when done tastefully) is genuine crack to me and yr s2 is no exceptionnnnn.
i know most were looking forward to jealous!wille but i was, personally, dreading it and once i finished s2 i knew exactly why. watching jealous!wille was painful cause we know why he did what he did at the end of s1. it was a crappy move, but we understand it. unfortunately, it’s that crappy move that drives a wedge between him and simon and, inadvertently, drives simon into marcus’ arms. wille is the master of his own misery and he knows it. it hurts even more knowing that wilhelm was going to let simon go once he believed that simon was 100% done with him.
on the other hand, jealous!simon was HILARIOUS because, for the most part, he was just being a petty brat (i say this with the utmost affection). it’s simon who begins the process of moving on with another person but once he gets a whiff of wilhelm possibly moving on as well, he throws a fit (and a ball…at wille’s head). it’s simon that wants space from wille and largely hints at the fact that he can’t see a future where they continue their relationship. but the second wille accepts that he has to let simon go, simon immediately panics at the prospect of wille giving up on them.
anyway i love jealous!simon with my whole heart and if anyone has fic recs please leave them below.
Simon trying to rebound, and then getting mad when Wille tries to do it too is so me
I’m 23 now, and let me tell you what I’ve come to discover about the world since the times i posted frequently on here at the ages of 17&18.
I’m not the only one with feelings, everyone has super complex feelings, backgrounds, and interests. Teenagers tend to pretend they are the only people sad and going through heart break, even though deep down they know they aren’t. Teenagers are narcissistic when it comes to their own feelings and expect everyone to cater to them. No one owes you anything.
Another thing i realized is when it comes to myself, i like men who are the opposite of me. Shy but a little teasing, extremely caring, more the type to hang out at home with friends rather than go out. I find myself to be more outgoing and ready to party on a whims notice. I make out with men for attention, but never sleep with them because quite frankly i do not like being seen as this shell of a human for someone to stick their dick in. I need to know someone, explore their feelings and thoughts before it gets to that point. I’ve also realized that i don’t have one specific body type I’m attracted to. I really look at faces. If someone has big eyes and when they look at me i feel like I’m melting away, that’s when i know. Personality truly matters to me more than looks, and i hope that whoever i end up with sees me for me and not just my external beauty.
I’ve also realized that i do not need someone to be happy. Of course i have bad days, but so does everyone. On and overall basis i love myself, and who I’ve become.
Anyways I’m going to sleep now. Might edit this in the morning when i can think
I just went through this account for the first time and forever. I was fucking ridiculously dramatic in high school. Glad I’m no longer 16-17 and now have turned into the 22 year old man i am today. I was so in denial about being gay, in denial about hurting people i claimed to care about. I hurt people and blamed them for my pain. Honestly it took me being a shitty person in high school and karma coming around my first year of college to really grow as a human being. I don’t think anyone uses this app so i will probably not be on it, but i felt like this was a good place to put my thoughts.
